Tuesday

I feel as if days are wasted. Promises unfulfilled. But I don't blame anyone other than myself for the things that I can do but don't do.

I'm not talking about homework. I'm talking about the times when people ask you for your help but you choose not to do it even though you can do it. The things we take for granted sometimes disappear under your nose. You start to realize when it's too late. You realize what you had but no more. You realize you should change but you don't.

Change, you say? So easily said but it's hard to execute. What is the first step towards change? How long till we change? In the end, what have you wasted trying to change yourself?

The beauty of it all is that sometimes you don't change. You just don't.

What we do and what we say sometimes contradict each other. Maybe we'd like to be the person who changes the world but then we do nothing about it. We just sit back, hoping it changes.

Maybe you love someone but you never say it till they're gone and you're left alone spewing in your own crap. There are just some things that we can't get over and maybe it's best we don't get over it. If we forget this pain, maybe we'll forget who we are and why we are where we are. Maybe.

Today is a Tuesday and it sucks.